God's Mail

Gods' Mail (2011)

by Richard Michael

Hello brother, its been a long year, there's so much to tell

I wait to hear your voice again on your old cell

I know you've made your decision to go far away

I respect it now but I miss you every single day

By now you're probably getting used to it there

it's hard here without you, I still see you everywhere

when I go to school, the parks, or even just at the mall

it's like I'm still holding on and you haven't left me at all 

I wish I could get that hour back,

set everything back on track

that I could just say goodbye

So I write songs,  poems

and letters without fail

try to find comfort that God

will deliver my mail

The whole family took a vacation trip this August

we all missed you there, you should've been with us

I lost the opportunity to be a better brother it's a shame

I lost you and now without you I will never be the same

And wherever you are up there in heaven

I want you to know that we're uncles again

"Hope on the Rocks"

"Hope On The Rocks"--Toby Keith

 

"Hope on the Rocks"

A song called "Hope on the Rocks" by Toby Keith inspired the title to this post and is what I need right now, and seems I'm not the only one. I lost my brother over two years ago to suicide and since then I have not been myself. How can I, after all the guilt ? But I've managed, with some help of course, and there's less guilt these days.  

"When hope is gone, time is punishment." --Mitch Albom

Almost a year ago I found this beautiful person, an architect, whom I've fallen in love with, who's trying to survive and achieve the American dream but has no network to accomplish this. And all I keep thinking is how to save this person from himself and the depression that he feels as a result. And my fear resurfaces, of losing the fight again, of losing yet another beautiful wonder.

"Time is not something you give back. The very next moment may be an answer to your prayer. To deny the most important part of the future, hope." --Mitch Albom

There's an ocean of faith in a grain of sand, and the same can be said about hope. And when all else fails and one is left with a thread to hang by I try to reach out with a message of hope. One has to keep fighting for that dream, whatever it might be, and it might never become quite perfect but we can always approximate it with an ounce of effort and that is always better than not having tried at all. Never forget to smile and never forget to reassess how
much further we've come along and always look back at how much we've overcome and recognise that as an accomplishment and inertia to keep us moving forward.  

Remember to always be with friends that are positive thinkers, are supportive, and fun to go out with because laughing always helps and is still the best medicine for the heart and soul.

Cheers then!

P.S. Always have a pint or two to steel the nerves, 'tis called Happy Hour for a reason !